归属感

It's been a week since i arrived home...at tis veri moment in time...i'm realli enjoyin myself...not tat i'm doin anythin fun or watsoeva at the moment...in fact i juz got back from work...

Its juz the feelin tat one gets when some1 feels satisfied, happi & down-2-earth wif her own feelins & surroundings...i'm now hiding away in my bro's room...listenin 2 my sis's horrendous laughter...& knowin tat my family is juz a door away n not miles away makes me also feel at ease wif myself...

Its all about findin one's place in the world tat's so BIG & eventually realisin tat "Hey, at least there's some place i would gladly return to"...

Heartless!!!

i havent been sleepin well these few days even though i've ended my exams & should be de-stressin at the moment...but wif bills & all the money matters makin my head spin...its no wonder i cant realli rest...

but y'day... it was realli the ultimatum...or mayb not tat serious...but i juz cant seem to get over it...

i was tokin to "T" online who had juz recently experienced his PC breakin down & the loss of his mobile fone...so when i saw him on MSN...i was naturally concerned & consoled him in a way...so when he replied tat he was kinda "sian"...i then asked if he wanted me to tell him a joke...& u know wat his reply was?...he actualli said "no need la, i'm tired"...at tat veri moment in time...i was like..."What the F**K!"...to tink i actualli once pondered over if i shld get him an amulet... (ya, jan he's the one) ...

sometimes... i realli feel tat pp can get extremely heartless leh...its like u take it 4 granted tat the whole world is supposed to revolve around u or soemthin...not once rememberin tat frens could actuali choose NOT TO care...bestowin a little courtesy upon som1 who may not b tat impt to urself wouldnt realli hurt ba...

aniwae...it's juz another day of grievance...EXTREMELY disappointed wif him

因为我...不由自主

如果有一天我会不告而别原谅我因为我没有勇气留下

如果有一天我会置之不理原谅我因为我不想让你太爱我

如果有一天我会说我恨你原谅我因为我真的无法亲口对你说我有多么爱你
如果有一天我会说祝你幸福原谅我因为我由始至终只想看你幸福
如果有一天我会消失于世上原谅我因为我只想悄悄的走
如果有一天我会为你掉下眼泪原谅我因为我将无法停留在你的怀抱里

如果有一天你想知道为何我们的感情注定要落幕
原谅我...

因为我“不由自主”

（别怀疑我对你的爱，它从不曾因任何理由而停止。）

Highly Agitatable

For no apparent reason, it seems that i've been extremely highly agitatable these days...not 2 the extent of venting my anger on my frens...but still...i get irritated by the most trival details...and...i tend 2 focus on the bad rather than the good things...i wonder if tis has somethin 2 do wif the fact that i'm goin back soon...or mayb...i'm juz throwin my tantrums again...

i realli do hope tat i would restore to my calm and take-it-easy self...wonder when tat'll b?